I'm usually hesitant to fire up the home studio and work on music. Something happens when I get deep into the throes of recording — I don't want to concentrate on anything else. There's always something to tweak, something to adjust, something to edit.<\/p>\n
When I get into that mindset, everything else is a distraction, the least of which is the means by which I pay the bills. I've tried (unsuccessfully) to set up the Windows XP VPN server so I can make a Remote Desktop connection from my work computer to my home computer. (Yes, I have a VPN connection from home to work, but I'd like to make the appearance<\/em> of face time.)<\/p>\n It's these times that make me dread heading into an office, which then results in a spiral of doubt and fantasy. What would I be doing if I weren't doing what I was doing?<\/p>\n First off, I'm feeling restless with web development. As professions go, development has always been something I could do that doesn't annoy me, but my identity is not entirely wrapped up in it. I read these articles on dzone all the time bestowing the virtues of good developers — the ones who constantly learn, the ones who recognize the holes in their training and try to plug them — and I resembled a lot of those traits about three years ago.<\/p>\n (Huh. Three years ago. That's about the same time I started building up the home studio again.)<\/p>\n Now I've hit a wall, and I'm not certain I want to get past and\/or around it. I could do much more to be better at PERL, PHP and all the rest, and I could probably even take a deeper plunge into Ruby and Ruby on Rails. But the time spent doing that means time away getting better with effects processing, mixing, rehearsing …<\/p>\n I don't even know if I want my day job to be "developer". Oh, I still want a day job — I like how music serves as a refuge. It would stop being so if it became the focus, and I would develop the same restlessness for it as I have for web development.<\/p>\n I think more than anything, this restlessness is more about mental stimulus than anything else. Solving problems with code is a great fit for me, but at some point, how many more ways can I look at the same control structures and data types?<\/p>\n Which brings us back to the question of what I would be doing if I weren't doing what I was doing.<\/p>\n I don't have a concrete answer. Some vague ones in which I might indulge at some point, but nothing solid.<\/p>\n In short, I don't know.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I'm usually hesitant to fire up the home studio and work on music. Something happens when I get deep into the throes of recording — I don't want to concentrate on anything else. There's always something to tweak, something to adjust, something to edit. When I get into that mindset, everything else is a distraction, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-65","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p4Bkgj-13","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/gregbueno.com\/vexvox\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/65","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/gregbueno.com\/vexvox\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/gregbueno.com\/vexvox\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gregbueno.com\/vexvox\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gregbueno.com\/vexvox\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=65"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/gregbueno.com\/vexvox\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/65\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/gregbueno.com\/vexvox\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=65"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gregbueno.com\/vexvox\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=65"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gregbueno.com\/vexvox\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=65"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}